Cast no Shadow....

Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hands
He walks along the open road of Love & Life
surviving if he can

Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to say
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
and as faced the sun he cast no shadow

As they took his soul they stole his pride

And as he faced the sun he cast no shadow

Anu nga ba?

para sa mga kabataan ng makabago at hi-tek na panahon....

sa mga dati, mga bago at sa mga hndi aku iniwan na mga kaibigan ko...


Isang buwan mahigit na ang nakalilipas ng ako ay mapasok sa isang klase ng buhay na hndi ko inakala na tatahakin ko. Ito ay ang magbigay ng "time-out" sa mga kabataan sa mabilis at magulong mundo ng urbanisasyon. Sinong mag-aakala, ako ang tutulong sa kanila na magnilay-nilay sa kanilang buhay na ako mismo kung minsan ay wala sa wisyo at pawarde-warde lang ang buhay. Ako na malayo sa tinapos ko nuong kolehiyo ang magbibigay ng retreat? Oo, nga pala sa hindi po nakaalam ako ay isang Nars by profession. Kaya laking gulat ng mga ibang nakakakilala sakin pagka nalalaman nila na ako ay nagbibigay ng retreat sa kanila. Ang bungas nila sakin, "Tj nagpari ka na ba?" Natatawa na lang ako, hindi ko din alam ang isasagot. Ang sabi ko na lang tumutulong ako. Yung iba naman ang reaksyon eh sigurado daw pagkatapos makinig sakin at natapos na yung retreat ng mga bata dadami daw ang mga bilanggo. Hmmm...ewan ko lang, baka nga siguro..hehehehe

Sa totoo lang sa mga araw na nilalagi ko dun sa Lipa, mas nakikilala ko ang sarili ko. Kung anu ang mahalaga sa buhay. Kung anu yung importante. Isa na dun ay ang pagkakaibigan Isang kaibigan ang naging daan kung bakit aku nandun. Nag-umpisa sa isang simpleng paanyaya at ngayo habang inaantay ko pa ang magiging takbo ng aking kapalaran eh nandun ako. Tumutulong at kasabay nadin nun ang pagpapahinga. [salamat nga pala kay Ato (si Fr.Bert), yun ang magiliw namin na tawagan]

KA-I-BI-GAN. Kaibigan, ito na marahil siguro ang pinaka importanteng mga tao sa buhay mo sunod sa iyong pamilya. Malungkot daw ang buhay pagka wala ka nito. Sa iba naman ito ang nagiging basehan nila kung anu ang pagkatao mo. The more friends the better you are, the less you are not that good ika nga nila. Kanya-kanyang opinion lang din naman iyan. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako na sasang-ayunan ng lahat, ang mga kaibigan na magtatagal ayung mga tapat sa iyo at tapat kadin sa kanila. Na tipong kahit anu pa ang mangyari till death do us part ang labanan. Minsan talo pa ang girlfriend or ang asawa. Naalala ko tuloy yung kaibigan ko na clasmeyt ko din nung hayskul. Ang tanung niya sa isang barkada namin,"anu ba ang kaibigan? Nuong una natawa kami, pero nakita namin na seryoso siya. Marahil hindi talaga niya alam kung anu na nga ba. Anu nga ba ang kaibigan?

Marahil ang bawat isa sa atin ay may kanya-kanyang mga pakahulugan kung anu ang kaibigan para sa kanila/ sa kanya. Anu man ang dahilan, mga interes mo o intesyon sa isang ato ay dapat respetuhin. Ngunit isa lang ang sigurado ako, ang tunay na kaibigan ay handa mong intindihin at iintidihin ka. Na ang tunay na kaibigan ay walang pinipiling oras kung kailan siya hihingi ng tulong sa iyo at ganun ka din sa kanya. N anag tunay ay kaibigan ay kaya mong tanggapin ang lahat ng kahinaan at ganun kadin sa kanila. Na ang importante ay kung sino ang dumating sa buhay mo at hndi ka nila iiwan. Yun marahil siguro ang sukatan ng Pagkakaibigan.

Sa mga kaibigan ko...salamat...at wlang hanggang pasasalamat...

for a L I F E T I M E

Plain admiration mixed with affection
Never thought it would turn into perfection
How I am to you, and you are to me
I guess it was all meant to be

Before you, my life is much an easy road
Straight and smooth, much too broad
Pretty light though it seems
I'd give anything to have the man of my dreams

Now that I found you, Love
I thank the Lord from above
Not only did I've got most of our time here to spare
But now we've got a lifetime to share

-------------------------------------------------------

Happy Monthsary to my Radiance of Truth...
My life-mate, for a lifetime..
So much Love to be shared..so much..

Thank you very much and I love you so!!!

Piece of This

Farewell to my friends,
Thought I'd leave you all behind me.
My time is runnin
And I'm about to lose my mind again.

Now and then, I tremble all over
But I will carry the load upon my shoulder,
But I know this would all be over
As soon as I open my eyes.

Is it loneliness?
Maybe emptiness?
Maybe melancholy.

Have a piece of this.

Now I see the sunlight shining through
There's no reason to be blue, but,
Now I know I'm going down,
I look all around me and laugh like a clown.

Now and then, I tremble all over
But I will carry the load upon my shoulder,
But I know this would all be over
As soon as I open my eyes.

Is it loneliness?
Maybe emptiness?
Maybe melancholy.

Have a piece of this.

Now I see the sunlight shining through
There's no reason to be blue, but,
Now I know I'm going down,
I look all around me no I won't frown.

Can anybody help me when I'm down?
And anybody since I'm just a clown,
But now I know love will stick around
Cause I've been lost and found.

TAG-ULAN

Minsan ika'y nag_iisa walang makasama
Di malaman sa'n tutungo
naghahanap nag_iisip kung sa'n babaling
Dito sa mundong mapaglaro

At tuwing ika'y nalulumbay di makakita
Nais mo ay may makasama
Sa `yong lungkot akala mo ika'y nag_iisa
Narito ako't kapiling ka
Kung nais mo ika'y lumuha
Ako'y makikinig sa bawat salita

Kapag umuulan bumubuhos ang langit
Sa `yong mga mata
Kapag mayroong unos ay aagos ang luha
Ngunit di ka mag iisa kaibigan
Kay rami ng mga tanong sa `yong isipan
Nais mo lamang ay malaman
Bakit nagkaganoon ang nangyari sa `yong buhay
Tanong mo man sa `ki'y `di ko alam
Handa akong maging tanggulan
Sa tuwing sasapit sa `yo ang tag_ulan oh

Ako'y naririto naghihintay lamang
sa `yo tumawag ka't ako ay tatakbo sa piling mo
Kaibigan kaibigan


Kaibigan

Lightning Crashes

Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
her placenta falls to the floor
the angel opens her eyes
the confusion sets in
before the doctor can even close the door

Lightning crashes, an old mother dies
her intentions fall to the floor
the angel closes her eyes
the confusion that was hers
belongs now, to the baby down the hall

Oh now feel it comin' back again
like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
forces pullin' from the center of the earth again
I can feel it.

Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
this moment she's been waiting for
the angel opens her eyes
pale blue colored iris,
presents the circle
and puts the glory out to hide, hide

Oh now feel it comin' back again
like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
forces pullin' from the center of the earth again
I can feel it.

Summer Romance (Anti-Gravity Love Song)

I'm home alone tonight.
Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight.
I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly
possible...with you.
So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous by quarter-to, and make sure we're alone.
I think I've found a way for you and I to finally fly free.


When we get there, we're gonna fly so far away,
Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity.
Anti gravity

For years, I kept it to myself.
Now potentialities are bound, are living under my shelf.
Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy,
and we'll be there.
So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous by quarter-to, and make sure we're alone.
I think I've found the way for you and I to finally be free


When we get there, we're gonna fly so far away,
Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity.
Anti gravity

I Wish..

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how feels to be me
Then you'd see and agree that every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing cos I know how it feels to be free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
And I wish I could say all the things that I wanna say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

One love one blood
One life you've got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sisters, brothers

One love but we're not the same
We got to carry each other Carry each other
One One One One One...

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free

Getting There...

"Courage. By beginning the journey with
that word and continuing faith in God,
you will arrive wherever you need to."

-Paulo Coelho


Getting There, but the question is getting where?
Courage, a very strong word but can be expressed
in a gentle manner. It is what we need in the journey,
specially when you are not sure on where you will be
headed to. It is also important if you will know
where you go and that also is a part of the journey.

Knowing. To acquire knowledge. Very Factual in nature.
Just like in a journey, you may compare it to a map
where it will show you the way if you are lost. Factual.
If you will look at it, it seems that the journey is
short but in reality it is not. Believing that you will
arrive wherever you need to. Believe. More of experiential
in nature. Believing is parallel to faithfullness. To be
faithfull. Faith, it is not just taught but it is also
experienced. To believe in what you know makes it more
meaningfull, thus the journey becomes more colorfull.
That you will arrive and live a good life after all the
misleading directions. In the long run you say to your
self that the journey is memorable.

Exicitng. Fun-filled. Unpredictable. This is life,
to know and to believe. To hold on to your dreams.
To know that you have the capability to live a happy
and meaningfull life. That at the end of the journey,
you will be with that meaning. That you live for a lifetime.
To believe that all of this will happen and it is bound
to happen for a lifetime.

We are getting there, we know it and all we have to do
is to believe it that it will last for a lifetime.

Us,
Kjaereste

Never say never

Some things we don't talk about,
Rather do without,
Just hold a smile.
Falling in and out of love,
Ashamed and proud of,
Together all the while.

You can never say never,
While we don't know it,
Time and time again.
Younger now than we were before.
Don't let me go [6x]

Picture,
You're the Queen of everything,
Far as the eye can see,
Under your command.
I will be your guardian,
When all is crumbling,
Steady your hand.

You can never say never,
While we don't know it,
Time, time, and time again.
Younger now than we were before.
Don't let me go [6x]

We're falling apart,
And coming together again and again.
We're crawling apart,
But we fall in together,
Pulling together, together again.
Ooohhh Ahhhhh

Don't let me go [12x]


L.S.S. namin ni Rdong...hehehe

August 11, 2005

Yes. You make her proud. From that day on (August 11,2005),
a genesis of a new life started for you and your family.
At first it maybe difficult but i know you managed
to get through with it. Still there will be tough
times that will pass (I used the word pass, because
tough times doesn't last forever) along the way.
You will get through it, because i know that you
are a type of person that doesn't dwell on the past
and learn from the lessons of it.

Yes. You are a tough girl, and still learning things.
Dedicated to your family and I know that you really
love them up to the point that you sometimes tend
to sacrifice your own personal legend. But no matter
what happens, I will always be by your side. Fear is not an
option as well as failure.
We will work on what we have started. As what you have
said we have only just begun.

Yes. I want you to feel and know that I will be with you
for a lifetime. What ever happens and i commit my self to you,
we will make it happen.
I love you so much.

us,
Teejz

on Imperfect Love

for Mr.K, I must admit...this is the hardest so far of all the blogs that I have written...I hope that this suffices your thoughts my friend...

"Perfect Love has no fear." 1 John 4:16-20. At first I believed that this pertains to your love of neighbor but I'm wrong. This pertains our Love of God and his Love for all of us. We can't say that we truly love Him if we have worries in life. Trust and Confidence is all that he ask for us. It is also hard for us to say that love is imperfect. Maybe the love that we give is imperfect, it is because of the reality that we are not God and only he can make love perfect.

It is also not quite fair to say that a bad start (what ever reason/s) in a relationship is already an imperfect love. What important is how to nourish it. We all know how it is to nourish a relationship. CONTROL=CTRL stands for:

C- COMMUNICATION
T- TRUST
R- RESPECT
L- LOVE

What to expect in a not so good start of a Love relationship? It will be logical to say that it started as a mess it will end up as a mess as well. But in reality, not all engagements or relationships with a not so good start will end up no where. Just like in a basketball game, a slow start of a team doesn't mean that they will loose the game. In deed love is a crazy game, maybe at the moment you are up by a big lead and with just a wink of an eye you are down. Either we win or loose the game at the end, if we know we gave the best of what we have. We will have the sense of fulfillment and we gain more wisdom. Much wiser, stronger and experienced.

No one looses, even if we are the one who is left alone in the final buzzer. It is the one left alone that gains more from it. Life is full of "Ironies." It is just like a famous line from a famous new wave song of the 80's, "The more you hate, the more you love. The more you Love, the more you go away..."

Some times we hold on to so many things, most of it are useless in your life that you need to place them somewhere else. Or you also consider of disposing them. The question is are we brave enough to let go. Maybe, just maybe the feeling of uncertainty is the one that holds back to decide. This is Life, "Be Disposed, and thy burden will be light."

Mga Gusali (Bantayog ng Pagkatao)

Para kay Apo Lakay (si "Papang" ang aking Ama)
at
kay Rdong, ka-kuntsaba sa lahat ng kalokohan
(ang aking nag-iisang kuya at kapatid)

Sa konstraksyon, sa mga gusali, sa mga malalalalim na hukay ng pundasyon nag-umpisa ang aming pamilya. Maniwala kayo, pati ang love story ng magulang ko sa isang matayog na gusali nag-umpisa. Saksi ang isang gusali sa umpisa ng pagmamahalan ng aking mga magulang. Ika nga nila the rest is history. Sa totoo lang nung bata aku, idol ko si tatay. Siya nga pala ang ama ko at ang aking kapatid ay parehong inhinyero (engineer ba?. Hehehe... Sa katunayan nga, may yearbook kami nun. Lahat naman ata meron nun. Nasa Prep pa lang aku nun, ang tanong eh what would you like to be when you grow up. Dahil sa idolo ko nga si ama ang sagot ko eh, "I want to be an engineer." Sa kalaunan, na mulat din aku na hindi yata ako para sa ganung klase ng propesyon. Sa ganuong klase ng paumumuhay. Na kailangan lumayo ng matagal upang magtrabaho sa ibang bayan. Ganun talaga, "that's life" ika nga nila. Hindi mo makukuha ang lahat. Nakakatawa nga eh, minsan nung nasa greyd two aku nun, tumawag si papang. Biyernes nun, mga 6pm yata dito nun sa Pilipinas tapos siya ay nasa Saudi. Lupain ng mga Arabo. Sabi ko na umuwi na lang siya at tutulungan ko siya. M agiging basurero ako. Mantakin mo yun, naisip ko payun. Na maging isang tagapulot ng dumi ng iba. Pesteng nyawa nga naman.

Ganun talaga siguro. Sakripisyo talaga, sa ngayun naman at sa panahon ngayun. Dapat maintindihan na lang kung bakit kelangan gawin ang mga ganuong bagay. Sa pamilya. para sa pamilya. Sa pagmamahal sa pamilya. Para sa mas magandang kinabukasan at para sa kung anun pang mga dahilan. Dumaan ang elementary at high school. Tuwing panahon, graduation sa totoo lang palaging sa graduation ko lang nakakaatend si papang. Hindi to alam ni utol pero nalulungkot din ako kahit papaano. Dumating ang kolehiyo, si kuya ang nagpatuloy sa propesyon ni papang. Ako naman pagkatapos ng Hyaskul hindi ko alam kung anu kukunin....fast forward ng kaunti, ako ay naging isang nars at si kuya isang engineer. Nakakatuwa lang, kasi ni hindi naman lang naisip ni kuya na maging isang inhinyero. Sa buhay yata, ganun talaga. ekspek the unekspekted. A heto naman aku,hindi ko naman pinangarap mapunta sa larangan ng kalusugan. Hehehe...

Sa kanyang mga gawa daw nasusukat ang isang pagkatao. Siguro nga, tama sila. Success daw kung tawagin sa Ingles. Oo, nasa kaledad ng mga proyekto na kung saan naging parte ang aking ama at kuya ng sukatan ng pagiging matagumpay, sa buhay? Siguro sa propesyon lang. Sabi nga nmg aking kaibigan, sa buhay ng tao mayroon daw tayong apat na bola na madalas nilalaro at palaging dala-dala. Sa apat na iyon tatlo ang gawa sa goma at isa ang gawa sa poselana. Ang bola ng trabaho, kaibigan at mga pangarap ay gawa sa goma. Ngunit ang bola ng relasyon sa pamilya ang bukod tangi na gawa sa goma. Hindi ko na siguro kailangang ipaliwanag ito.

Sa aking papang at kay kuya. Kayong dalawa ang haligiat pundasyon ng masayang samahan ng ating pamilya. Salat man sa kayamanan ng mundo pero mayaman sa pagmamahal sa isat-isa, na handang ibahagi sa iba.

Question of Faith

Can’t see the truth in triggered words
Don’t need a mountain for a wall
See the big old moon spin around the world
Somehow it makes me feel so small

I know I’ve been living the simple life, really that’s the main thing
Nowadays nobody speaks about the way they feel about things
I know I need something to set me right, now it seems there’s nothing
Nowadays nobody thinks about a way to ease the suffering

Baby I know you’re the first thing
I believe in, honestly
How do you prove what you can’t see?
Well, it’s a question of faith
Baby I know you’re the first thing
I believe in, honestly
Say you don’t know enough about me
Well, it’s a question of faith

Don’t wanna complain, the weather could be worse
But I wish I’d learnt from my mistakes
Don’t really need no clever words
To understand what’s in your face

I know I’ve been living the simple life, really that’s the main thing
Nowadays nobody speaks about the way they feel about things
I know I need something to set me right; now it seems there’s nothing
Nowadays nobody thinks about a way to ease the suffering

Baby I know you’re the first thing
I believe in, honestly
How do you prove what you can’t see?
Well, it’s a question of faith
Baby I know you’re the first thing
I believe in, honestly
Say you don’t know enough about me
Well, it’s a question of faith


"I love this song..."

Sunrise and Sunset...

Two amazing scenes that happens in a day. Some will look at it as the beginning and the end. Alpha and Omega. The responsible for these two highlights is the Sun God, as what our ancestors believed in and worshiped.

The rising and setting of the Sun reminds us that there is hope. That there is a new life waiting for us to be fulfilled. A dream waiting for us to be realized. A love eagerly waiting for us. To lose hope on something that we want to achive, to reach or to experience is not an option.

Time will come, all things will start well and end well. All things will be clear. All questions will be answered. All will be fulfilled.

For my friend anonymous, for now things may seem to be vague but as what i have told you in His time all things will be great. A man knows where his heart belongs and at the end of the day, he will go back to the arms of that one person whom he truly loves and the one who truly loves him.

Always Look on the Bright Side of Life

After that fateful day of vindication. I've been recieving a lot of text and calls from my friends asking me how am I doing? My only answer is plain and simple, "I'm doing great!"

Sounds impossible? Maybe, but that is the way I feel. The secret? Maybe it is not a secret, we just forgot it. A famous brand of shoes used it years ago as their tag line for their product commercial. To always look on the bright side of life. It is a plus if you come across with the radiance that will help you to look at life in a much exciting manner. Then you are lucky, it is up to you both to work on it.

To my radiance of truth and life. You are the reason of these things. I will never be tired. You know that you are my sunshine after the rain. My summer after the winter and spring. Thank you and I Love You.

The Calming of the Sea

Happy Father's Day sa lahat ng mga Ama...mabuhay sila...at sa mga magiging Ama, humanda na sa pagbabanat ng buto..lalaki na ang pamilya..hehehe

Galing anu, ingles ang pamagat ng blog tapos tagalog ang binabasa nyo...hehehe
para maiba naman. Freestyle naman ito di ba? Yan kasi yung ebanghelyo kanina sa misa. Sa tagaytay kami nagmisa, pasyal daw sabi ni mamang, ksi nung araw ng mga ina busy daw lahat kaya hindi na siya naipasyal. Talaga nga naman ang mga kababaihan, di magpapatalo sa lahat ng bagay. Si papang, oo na lang. Si kuya tulog sa biyahe. Si bunso, ako po iyon, ang family driver. Sa ganitong mga biyahe, si utol ko talaga ang co-pilot ko (katabi sa harap, yun lang yun akala nyo kapalitan sa pagmamaneho? asa na lang ako..hehehe). Pero iba ang tema kanina, puyat ksai ang utol ko kaya sa likod siya naupo kasama si mamang. Ayun tulog, parang aku din lang. Bukakang ang bibig. Pagod, kawawa naman. buti na lang at walang nahulog na bangaw sa loob. Hehehe..joke lang...

Ayun, nadun na kami...sa Lourdes Tagaytay. Wedding capital of the Philippines daw. May punto nga naman sila kasi kung titignnan ang marriage banns puno nga naman. Sakto, ang magmimisa eh yung kaibigan kong obispo. Si bishop Ted Buhain. Nag-umpisa ang misa, "sa ngalan ng ama at anak at...etc. etc. Amen!" Sermon na, simple lang naman ng sinabi niya. Sa gospel kasi nasa isang banka sina Jesus saka ang mga masusugid niyang alagad. May bagyo, malakas na hangin at umaalon. Yung tipong tataob na sila. Si Hesus steady lang, tulog padin mahimbing pa ang pagkakatulog. Natakot si Pedro, tarantina na ang pinuno ng mga matitikas n alagad. Wala lang maisip gawin kung hindi gisingin ang Panginoon. Sabi ni Hesus, cool na cool lang, "Mga kapatid ko, wag matakot ako ang bahala. Tumigil ka alon at ikaw hangin sumipol ka na lang. Teady lang kayo" Ayun sumunod ang mga pwersa ng kalikasan sa kanya.

Moral lesson ayon ke bishop Ted:
"Sa Pilipinas, may humigit kumulang 20 na bagyo ang dumadaan taon-taon. Sa buahay ng tao madaming unos, o bagyo ang tawagin ang dumadaan. Maaring sa isang pamilya ay pagkamatay ng isang kapamilya o kapuso. Sa isang dating relasyon, ito ay nasira na kadalasan eh hindi pa alam ang dahilan kung bakit nagkaganon. O, sa isang estudyante na nawala ang kanyang Iskolarship. Alam ko na madaling sabihin ngunit mahirap intindihin o unawain na kung bakit kailangan na mangyari ang mga bagay-bagay. Sa isang banda kasi, tayong mga tao ang gusto natin ay maintindihan o dapat may dahilan ang mga bagay-bagay. Hindi po ganun, may dahilan ang panginoon na sya lamang ang nakaalam at sa kalaunan ay atin ding maiintindihan. Kailangan lamang na magtiwala, yun lang ang hinihiling niya sa ating lahat. Mahal tayo ng panginoon, na kahit gumawa ka pa ng masama o mabuti. Lahat mahal niya tayo. Kailangan lang na magtiwala na ang lahat ay magiging mabuti." Amen ba mga tol? Digs ba nating lahat?

History 101

Para kay Herman Placer at
kay Ambeth Ocampo (Henyo ng Kasaysayan)


Malapit nang matapos ang buwan ng kalayaan. Ang tanong, tunay nga ba tayong malaya?
Bago ko ipagpatuloy ang maikli kong pagbabahagi. Hayaan nyong ipakilala ko muna kung sinu ang dalwang tao na aking pinag-aalayan ng Blog na ito. Si ginoong Herman Placer, guro ko sa Araling Panlipunan nuong ako ay nasa unang taon sa mataas na paaralan. Siya ang nagmulat sa akin na hindi lahat ng nasusulat sa libro ng kasaysayan ay totoo. Na ang buhay ng natin ay puno ng kabalintunaan at nasa sa tao kung papaano ito haharapin. Si ginoong Ambeth Ocampo, ang siyang nagbulalas ng ilang mga iskandalo na kinasangkutan ng ating mga bayani. Tunay nga naman na walang perpektong kasaysayan. Kahit ang buhay ng isang tao, marahil ay ganun din. Hindi ba kayo nagtataka na puro magagandang bagay lang ang itinuturo sa atin nung tayo ay nag-aaral pa? Si ginoong Ambeth ang naging susi upang itama ang ilang mga bagay sa ating kasaysayan.

Kasaysayan, mahalaga pa ba ito sa iyo? Eh anu nga naman at bakit kailangan pang pag-aksayahan ng panahon? Anu nga naman kung malaman ko ang mga iskandalo na kinasabwatan nung mga bayani? Bakit nga ba sila naging bayani? Paano ba maging bayani? Kailangan ko bang maging ganun? Malaya nga ba ako, ikaw, tayo ang buong bansa?

Lingid siguro sa kaalaman ng lahat, na binenta tayo ng mga konkistador na mga Espanyol kina Uncle Joe ng Mighty Dollar US of A!!! Ang treaty of Paris? Anu nga ba yun? Basta ang naalala kong itinuturo nun eh, may kasunduan at binayaran ng kung magkano ang mga pupol na mestiso. Kunektado yun, sa tinaguriang "The Battle of Manila Bay." Ang turo pa nga sa amin nun ni Ser Herman iyon daw ay dapat tawagin na "The Mock Battle of Manila Bay." Malaki nga naman ang punto niya, ikaw ba naman lalaban ka pa sa mga barko ni Uncle Sam na gawa sa bakal? Tapos ang mga mestisong pulpol, ang panlaban nila: mga kahoy na barkong pandigma na may kamupupot na kanyon. San ka pa? Tibay ng apog na lang ang nilaban nila. Siguradong bawi naman daw eh. Natapos ang laban, ito ang resulta:

Uncle Sam: 1 patay, 9 sugatan
Mga Mestisong pulpol: 161 patay, 210 sugatan at 7 barko ang tumaob

Di bale daw sabi ng mga mestiso, bayad naman na sila eh. Sinu ang panalo? Pareho sila, tayo ulit ang nauto. Juan Dela Cruz, na-denggoy ulit ng mga konkistador. Kung titignan ng mabuti, hinayaan ng mga kastilaloy na madurog sila ng mga puti para maganda ang pag-alis nila sa Pilipinas. Sa panig naman ni Uncle Sam, bayani ang dating nila sa mga Pilipino. Kasama din ata yun sa usapan nila sa Paris. Naisip ko lang, uso na pala yung mga war movies nung araw no? Para sakin isa itong, pelikula. Maayos nga naman. Plantsado lahat. Ang nakakalungkot nga lang, akala nila Aguinaldo at ng mga tropa niyang mga matatapang na malaya na tayo. Yun pala binenta ng mga kastilaloy ang Rights kung tawagin. Kaya ayun, hindi nila alam na pinapaikot na tayo nila. Magaling sila Uncle Sam, hinayaan nila na magpahayag tayo ng kalayaan. Sa katunayan nga sila pa tumulong para sa press release ng ating kalayaan nuong June 12, 1898. Friendship ang sandata nila para makuha ang kalooban ng mga mababait na pinoy. Hindi tulad ng mga mestisong kampupot ang kanyon, 3 G's ang ginamit: God, Guns ang Gold. Naiwagayway na ang bandila sa balkonahe ni Aguinaldo. Malaya na tayo! Galing ano? Sabi ng mga puti, "Magaling, nandito kami para tumulong." Hindi pa daw natin kaya magtayo ng gobyerno. Tinanggap naman nila Aguinaldo. Sige daw, hindi nila nalalaman nuon na namumuhunan na ang Amerika sa atin. Ngayun tinatamasa na nila ang kanilang return of investment.

Malaya nga ba tayo? Anu nga ba pagkakakilanlan natin?
May kasabihan sila: "History repeats it's self." Tama nga naman, di ba?
Pero hindi ba na mas magandang namnamin ang mga katagang ito:
"History will not repeat only if we learn the lessons of it."
Ganyan din sa buhay natin, sa lahat ng aspeto. Kahit sa personal na buhay at buhay pag-big. Ang buhay ay parang isang giyera. Depende na sa iyo kung gagawin mong scripted.

Napahaba yata ang blog na ito...hahaha..

Vindicated

Vindicated is to justified.
To regain justice to your self.
To give justice to your humanity.

After a grueling struggle,
with what you thought will last forever.
Here you are, standing at the end of the road.
There you are in the end of the journey
of what you dreamed to have a fairy tale ending.
The reality is, you are a damn fool who
believed in that person's sweet tooth promises.
There you are, all is clear.
No more looking back.
No more turning back.
You prepared for this.
To start all over again.

You stoped asking the big WHY?
You start asking the big WHERE?
Where to begin. Once you knew it,
now you are ready to accept the Genesis.
The Genesis of a new Journey.
Much wiser, more prepared.
Much eager for new promises.
To build new dreams.
To Live a new Life, the way it should be.

on Courage and Acceptance

December 21, 1997. It is a sunday, ten young courageous men. prepared them selves for the past 2 years of their lives in the ministry for that great event. The Acceptance ceremonies. Held duirng the 11:oo am mass, witnessed by the faithful. Remembered by the servants, I am one of them. The ministry, Knights of the Altar (sacristan in our folk language). For more than ten years of my life Ihave been active in the ministry. The celebration is just like in ordination or perpetual profession in religous life. Why it is called accpetance? Primarily it is because we ask for the responsibility in serving not only in the daily mass but also to serve the community. In the process, the church will give us the responsibilty and there we were, young and very idealistic accepting the challenge of the church. It is also clear for the ten of us that the responsibility will also has its end. Everything must come to an end. We had our time and now it is thiers. Still, the acceptance attitude comes into play.

Just is the same in the different aspects of our lives. At first it hard to acccept that your capacity or your capabilty has reached its final peak. Now, there is only no more choice left for you but to hold loose on it. Only time will tell when will you understand why such circumstances occured. But at some point you will realize, there is no better way to handle things but to follow the Black Label Principle: Keep Walking. Then we will add the word Acceptance. Which makes it more meaningful. Less we realize that we started the journey with courage and acceptance. Thus we must also end it with that attitude: Courage and Acceptance. It doesn't end there, the question 'Where?' must be answered. The best way to answer it is to accept. Acceptance of your present situation, of those people who will come across you, of new relationships, friendships and of new responsibilities. Even new commitments must also be considered.

The past is already done. That only the lessons of it must be learned. You will loose relationships or even friendships. That is fine, nothing will remain forever. Only those who are brave and strong will stay forever. Yes, we can restore friendships and promises but it will never be the same. Maybe somethings are better left to be that way. Just to save some sanity for your self. So that you may start another journey all over again.

Courage and Acceptance. By beginning the adventure of a lifetime with this attitude we will arrive to the realizations of our dreams and fantasies.

Stages of Love

It is just purely my opinion based
on my personal experiences.
I shall classify it into three stages:
FEELING, ABILITY and DECISION.

The stages are very important to be reached.
Thus, if a relationship has fulfilled these
stages then that is the time that Love is
actualized. Love has reached its full potential.
All of the stages has no time frame at all.
I do believe that Love has it's own time and space.
That it decides when it comes and it also the one
who determines if it is time to leave.
The three can also occur all at the same time.

FEELING
Commonly known as the "Courting stage".
It begins with attraction, it also begin with
seduction. Either which of the two is a good start.
Knowing the person's past is the important key.
Atleast you may have the idea on what he/she
feels in entering into another journey of Love.

ABILITY
Also known as the "Proving stage."
Because you already know something about
the persons past. The task at hand is great,
to learn the mistakes of the past and to prove
that history doesn't repeat it self. You will do
everthing with the help of your abilities and
the Mighty One. Praying and hoping that
this will last forever.

DECISION
I call it the "Commitment Stage." You choose
to be with this person for the rest of your life.
The question is, is he/she ready for it? If not,
then you are in deep shit. Some manage to say
the creed, to say the promise. Pretend for a
few months even for years. Then in just one
blink or one hush. Boom the Love is gone.
Then you will start singing the song,
"Where is the Love?" by Black eyed peas.
Really deep shit...Pretensions are not accepted,
conventional reasons such as, "at I tried." Tried what?
To hurt you? Hahaha..very funny...very funny...
Do not decide if you can't handle it. If actions hurts,
then words really do as well.

In this world of ours, all has the capability to give,
but not all has the capability to feel,
ability and to decide on Love.

One can Give without loving, but one
can not Love without giving.

Lifetime

Lifetime is not just a word,
it is a place.

A place where two people
journey together.

So when Love
sends you there,
don't just say 'Lifetime.'

Be there...

Greater Scheme

To my friends way back in 4th year H.S. we all know this song. We may already forgot the tune and the lyrics but I do believe that this is the reason why we keep on Living the Dream. I believe that we live our lives living out the message of this song in every single day of our lives.

This is also for the person who is helping me out with everything that in going thru right now. Just like all of us, that person also is experiencing hardships and pain. Thank you very much, you know that I'm with you always. I hope that you know and feel that...


Tired of weaving dreams too loose for me to wear.
Tired of watching clouds repeat thier dance on air.
Tired of getting tied on doing what's required.
Is Life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things?

Through with taking roads someone else designed.
Through with chasing stars that soon forget to shine.
Through with going through one more day-what's new?
Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things?

I think I'll follow the voice that calls within.
Dance to the silent song it sings.
I hope to find my place.
So my life will fall in place.
I know in time I'll find my place.
In the greater scheme of things.

Each must go his way, but how can I decide?
Which path I should take?
Who will be my guide?
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far.
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things.

The road before me bends:
I don't know what I'll find.
Will I meet a friend or ghosts I've left behind?
Should i even be surprised that you're with me in disguise?
For its your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things.

For yours is the voice of my deepest dream.
You are the heart, the very heart of the
greater scheme of things.

Why don't we follow the voice that calls within.
Dance to the silent song it sings.
One day we'll find our place.
For all things fall in place.
For all things have a place.
In the graeter scheme of things.

on Long Distance Relationships

Thanks to Anonymous who asked for this topic "Long Distance Relationships." Honestly, I don't have that any concrete idea on this. He asked me on how to cope-up with it. That is the challenge. Another thing is on what type of relationship will I tackle? Is it the boyfriend/girlfriend or more the family aspect of relationships. But for the benefit of all, I wil try to tackle both.

Distance, to be away. At first, we may look at it in a very negative mentality. Then if you add the word "Long" before it, it makes the word even worst. But less, we realize that these occurences makes us more stronger and motivated. It all boils down on how a person or what is the out-look of a person in his/her own life. A positive out-look leads to strenghthening and motivating relationships. While a negative one leads to destruction of one's neighbor leading to his/her own destruction, resulting to brokenness of the dreams and aspirations. that person may feel that there is no more reason to Live. Thus, the principle of Black Label by Johnnie Walker: Keep Walking is violated. As I always say, we became stagnant. There is no movement.

Waiting and just standing or shall I say staying in your comfort zone can never be, or is not a movement. This is an important aspect in relationships. Be it the boyfriend and girlfriend type or more on the family aspect. Movement can not start from 'Nothing to Something.' It should be from 'Something to Something even more Greater.' Man can never be contented in what he/she has. We look for something more and when we finally found it. Then the sense of fulfillment sets-in.

Distance should never be an issue. Perhaps maybe, but for some reasons that only reasoning itself can figure it out. We must learn to let go of somethings. Of some relationships, because that way it should be. The reason may not be clear enough or most of the time you can't seem to look at it. What important is that you know that you gave your best shot at it, no regrets in the end. There is no way but to move forward. No more looking back. The conventional reason 'Things happen because it happens' will be accepted.

This is the Anonimity of our Lives: Relationships come and go. Promises are broken. Dreams and aspirations are forgotten.

If you already found the relationship that you will hold-on for a long time, the lessons of the past should come into play: Relationships that will last. Promises that are fulfilled. Dreams and aspirations are renewed once more.

I hope that this would help us. To my Anonymous friend, I hope that you are satisfied with this. Feel free to let me know your thoughts. Vi Ses!! Tusen takk!!

Footprints in the Sand.

Foot prints in the sand doesn't last forever.
Nothing lasts forever. The sand is our world,
your own desires. Your own dreams and fantasies.
Foot prints is you, yourself. How you will master
to live your life.

In the course of the journey there are elements
of change: water and the wind. Changes are inevitable.
Yes, we can resist but the question is for how long.
You remain stagnant, lifeless. Thinking only of your self.
You don't want to be out of your comfort zone.
You are afraid, eventually you are hurting your self
and eventually hurting the people whom you Love.

To live a life with meaning, but how to live that
life if the meaning is already gone? It is gone because
it is meant to be. That is a big bull!@#$. It is gone
because it is allowed by us. We never gave that one
last ditch effort for us to save what is left. Then regrets
come into the scene, the "what if...maybe I should have
done this and that..." Maybe the only way to live it,
is to walk it. Walk the long and winding road of sand.
The road not to perdition, but the road to regain
your soul again.

We should learn Johnnie Walker's
"Black Label" principle: Keep Walking!!!

on Anxiety

I was on my way home after I visited our employer when I rode the Jeepney with a group of students. At first I just ignored what they are talking about. Why should I bother, I didn't even know them. Besides, it is traffic so what I did is I just closed my eyes. A few moments more and I'm asleep. A few minutes more, i woke up. Still, it was traffic so the driver decided to take a re-route.

I was then hearing familiar terminologies from the students. You can't help to listen to their conservations. Bingo, I knew it! They are nursing students from a prestigious university situated near the palace of the tallest president (sarcastically speaking) ever that this proud nation ever had. Kidding aside...hehehe...

The more they argued on some topics and questions. Oh, by the way they will have their Licensure examination this June 6 to 7. The anxiety level came up high when one of them expressed feelings on their up coming examination. The culmination of their studies for 4 long and tedious years. I asked my self, and i can't help not to help them to ease their anxiety... I asked my seatmate when is their examination? She answerd, "June 6 and 7 sir."

Then they asked me if I'm a nurse. I answered humbly with a "yes." The rest is History..
to cut the story short, I just shared what I did prior to the days of examination as far as my memory serves me right.

Maybe the striking statement which I feel took an effect to them is this: "When you are out there answering the examination, don't compete with the other examinees or even with your friends. You compete only with yourself. Pray hard it works."

Just like in our own lives, especially when it comes in making big decisions. Most of the time, you are left alone. You can ask for opinions of friends, family and the others. But down the wire, it will only be you and only you, nothing but the big YOU will call the shots that will later on change your Life.

on the verge of losing it and letting it go...

Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen

to the whispers of our heart. We all fall in Love

and there are times that we lose ourselves in

our own emotions, move often than not, we

wonder why there Love grows and Love grows cold.

We will begin to search for answers and to find out

where Love has gone wrong, but in the end we will

find ourselves where we started.

We can't question Love, when it has it's own reason.

Love is deeply profound. Most of us believe that Love

is forever, that Love never dies. Only to be disillutioned

in the end, when we joined our hands empty and

our hands longing.

We mistakenly have looked at Love as a need to be

fulfilled. But love is only entrusted to us. We should

not hold it in our hands forever, for we may not find

the strength to let it go when it decides to leave.

We should only embrace it's warmth and glow while

it lasts and then freely open our arms when it's time

to say good bye, no matter how painful it is.

Thoughts of the other Woman

What the heck strucked my senses and I chose this
topic to talk about. I'm not even one of them.
We all know that each person is needed to be loved
and that all is capable to love. I would laugh at a person
who would come to me and will say that "I can't Love."
That is a total bull@#!%.

Love is that one thing that could either make or break
you as a person. The good thing is there are chances
for us to rise up in our brokeness and eventually be
whole again once more. All of us made mistakes and
failures that is why I don't see the point why some
people see others mistakes. Everything happens for
a reason. Be it right or wrong. Everyone has their own
perception and opinion. All of us is entitled to shall I say
God's Greatest Gift" to us (atleast in my opinion),
that is called "freewill."

Maybe we do things out of Love. Sometimes or shall
I say most of the time we hurt the feelings of others.
Be it intentionally or not. Nothing is wrong with that,
what is important is that you have loved and
experienced to be love. it is a neverending cycle.

At the end of the day, you will say to your self that
I have truly lived for another day. I remember my
favorite celebrity chef (Wolf Gang Puck) in his parting
words before his show ends: LIVE LOVE EAT!!!
Its up to you guys if you want to add some meaning to it. Lol!!!

on Competitiveness

It is Monday, it is time for a good friendly game
of basketball with the old friars in our parish community.
Meeting old friends, talking and reminiscing the past memories
that bonded us as a group. I even gave a name to our group,
I called it Monday Club. Once you entered the gymnasium,
you can feel the intensity of each one. While you are watching and
waiting for your turn you can see that all are giving their best.
It seems that you are watching the NBA playoffs..

Who would never forget the bruises, the laceration in the
eyelids and most of all the famous fall I experienced which
caused me slip discs in my spine area. It almost paralized me.
But that never stoped me from playing again. After two months
of rehabilation, I once again came back to the pavement
and played the game I truly love.

The personalities, it changes on a weekly basis. The friars have
their famous Fr. Fred. In local dialect we call him "Amang."
The Great Father, maybe because he is the oldest in the group.
Who would not admire this man in his late 50's still running
around the court and still making his trademark off the board shots.
Take note he is diabetic for years. I still remember him during his
early years in our parish, he is a smoker. Then one monday when
he saw that there are a lot of youth playing in the gym.
He quited smoking and start playing with us. The competitive spirit,
his wisdom is very contagious. He even acts as a playing coach inside
the court if he is yor teamate.

I hope and wish, if ever I will reach that age I will be like him.
That is if I will reach that age. As what they say basketball is Life.
For some of these humble, lowly friars this is in deed true. A time for them to
know their fellow brethren and a good time to reach out to the community.

Anonimity of Life

ANONIMITY

I'm not that sure if this word really exixst...
from the root word anonymous which
means unknown or not to be know by any...
Sometimes it better that you are not know...



LIFE

What does it mean?
I'll bet everyone who will read this blog will have a share of his/her own meaning....this is very subjective word and all the words that will describe it is also subjective...
For a person who is in despair He/She would say that life is painful and if you ask why you might think that the reasons are not that valid because you are entitled to your opinion...
Maybe some would say it is Great, it is a Joy, etc...feelings, the humanity of a person, the emotions the struggles and victors this all plays a part in our life...and all of this are subjective in nature...but at the end of the day, one will realize that it is only who can deeply understand your own Life, your Humanity...

I remember one high school friend who joking asked one of our classmates, "What is a friend?" Everybody laughed thiers hearts out and giggled. He asked that in a serious tone and intention, but nobody is even brave enough to answer it, even i didn't. Because we all know that we have our own personal agendas, reasons or shall we call it intentions why we befriend a person...

Just like in our own Lives, at some point we might ask, "What is Life?" "How it is to Live?" "What it is to Live for? We may have a lot of reasons or whatever you want to call it...
What matters most is that we our intentions that is pure and profound. That we decide without a haste. For in Life, decisions became only wrong if we are not able to prove to our ourselves that we can't handle it...at the end we mess up our own Lives...

Maybe the secret to life is the word Courage: By beggining the Journey with that word and a continuing faith with your creator. You will arrive whever you need to... (words from Paulo Coelho's Warrior of the Light: A Manual)